I slept in a separate bedroom from my wife last night. No we didn’t have a fight. I am still in radioactive isolation and no I don’t glow in the dark. (See yesterday’s blog Watchout! I’m radioactive!) This was a first. Never in over 40 years of marriage have we slept in separate bedrooms under the same roof. That my friend, is a testimony to the grace of God in being the reconciler in our marriage, and not to any merit of mine.
This whole cancer thing has driven home to me like nothing before the counter intuitive ways of God. (Isaiah 55:9) See If life is short, how should I live? and Do not waste your troubles. God’s economy is the opposite of the world’s. He turns foolishness into wisdom, weakness into strength and what others despise into a treasure. (1 Corinthians 1:25-29)
How many times do beginning circumstances or choices which forecast bad endings unfold before us in ways that turn out for our good and not for evil? (Romans 8:28) Why just driving in morning rush hour traffic proves that. Jesus said “the first will be last and the last will be first.” Right? I should have been cued to that verse the first of two mornings this past week when I had to drive to medical appointments.
Not wanting to be late I chose the fast passing lane and a mile later ended up frustrated as I watched the cars in what should have been slower lanes race by me. The next day I decided to try the slow lane and six miles later it proved to be the fastest by far. How does that work? I don’t know, but like God’s ways, I don’t have to understand it, just cooperate with it.
When it comes to understanding God’s ways, more and more my advise is don’t even try. Trying to figure things out just gets in the way. Our puny minds only make things worse. It is really about trusting Him. Trust is not based on what we see, don’t see, understand or don’t understand. It is about believing God is in control and ultimately has a good ending planned.